True Freedom Lies in the Shadow
What a nice photo. Don't I look happy?? Yes. This is my heart shining through. I'm in bliss. I feel this way a good part of the time.
Then I do yoga, or breath-work, or meditate and I crack through the exterior down to the core. For the 2nd time this week (and for several weeks now?) I've cried in class. It was during a heart opening sequence. Open heart and then bending into ourselves. As I bent into my leg, directing my radiant heart in toward myself the tears came. When I move my body, when I hold the poses until discomfort and then sit with that feeling, I get access to the dark river that flows through me.
I could deny it, and push it down. I could build a happy sailboat and float over it. Sure. But then I would continue to play out my subconscious patterns, allowing the dark water to take me, direct me.
Instead I choose to get to know the river. I dip my hands in and pour the water all over my body. I bathe in it. Allowing it to cleanse me with new awareness. With awareness things shift. Anything that is observed inherently changes. Go down to the dark river inside you. Dip a toe in. Your whole leg. Maybe your entire body. Know that river. Fall in love with that river, and it will no longer dictate your life.